The Godbrother

'The gang' was at mac's yesterday n i was teaching my bro his econs. And my godbro was as usual constantly suaned by the rest. it's jus funnie to look at how bad it is and laugh along cos he cant do anything about it. but i love him lar. he's a great kid. we talked on our way back and he told me about school and how much he is struggling with poly. den he randomly said:

“前途一片黑暗”

It makes my stomach feel uneasy the way he meant every word of it. well, he din used to be so down. i remember him telling me a few years back that "i'm not stupid, i'm not slow, i'm just lazy." but that spirit seems to diminish gradually. and it's nt too bad tt he made it to poly and even if he din do too well now, it definitely does not mean tt his future is down the drain. but on the other hand, i understand wat he's talking about. we all make the mistake of pondering too much about what will future bring or not bring. and we definitely wun know wat's going to happen and that fear of not knowing scares people and makes people lose even more confidence about the future.

well, i duno how to comfort him. cos i know i'm probably going to say something that doesnt really matter anyways. but he makes me think of how much the education system here leaves little hope for people who arent too bright. he says he go into class feeling nervous and come out of it feeling depressed, not knowing what is going on. if he had went in with a more optimistic mentality, he could haf learnt more. but it's nt easy to just say 'i wan to make things work' and 'poof!' you suddenly feel all confident.

i wan to tell him that everything will be fine. i see people in sabah nt having a great education but they live like they really love their life and their surroundings. i guess the culture here pushes people to one corner. so it's really easier said than done. and i hate to see him feel like everything is so bleak. i for one occasionally make the mistake of staring at the darkness and uncertainty ahead and feeling like crap myself. and i'm in a uni for goodness sake's, much less someone struggling in poly.

orh well.